So yesterday I was on my way to Mississippi Market to apply for a part time position. I decided to drive through downtown St. Paul because I don't mind the scenic view and maybe it's easier then taking the freeway. I past the Dorothy Day Center, a shelter for people in need and out poured A LOT of single parents and children. Tiny little feet around the age of five or so braving the flurries to who knows where really. I went to apply and then I was off to see Beth the girl that I take care of who lives in Woodbury. I pulled up to their library which contains a giant in door park because Woodbury is so wealthy they can enjoy local and exotic plants all year round. There ran tiny feet that accompanied moms with Louis Vuitton bags. Every newspaper contained riveting material about a stupid fashion show. When I left to Beths house I just started to cry. I sat there and just let it all out because I was so sick by all of it at that point that I couldn't stand it.
I met up with Beth and my new wonderful manager and both of them always seem happy. We went bowling to get a giant bowling pin sippy cup which seemed to make all of our days.
Being in a better mood I tried to think of all of it in a more rational tone. I don't know how to connect any of it besides saying what I've always said before "Life is unfair". Children without homes or food, the humiliation of their parents....I don't know. I don't know how to fix it and I hate being that feeling. I guess there is always hope that life won't always be like that. I guess at one point when I was young we received church donations and they brought food over to us because we were so poor. My family isn't rich now but we aren't poor anymore either. It's going to be hard, a lot of work with not that many resources.....frustrating.
Today be grateful for everything
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