a little bit older....maybe wiser

As I hold his hand we reach the water front
"Oh my-" I pause as I look at gigantic concrete structures that seemed to appear overnight," Look Travis, it's so different"
I feel like I'm going to start crying but I just squeeze his hand a little tighter. It was like the whole thing never existed. I completely lost my grip on something I just wanted to keep around a little longer.


"Time to get up"
I wake up and realize I'm surrounded completely by teddy bears.
I try not to step on tiny eyes and little noses.
I walk into his room and we chat for a while. The light is soft and it bounces off of the floral patterns on his covers. I lay taking a bath in it for a while before I get up to pee.

This weekend has been a long pretty relaxing weekend. A weekend spent with mainly family or people whom I've known for so long they are like family and a long list of things that I appreciate incredibly.

Last night my exboyfriend Chris and I spent the night watching television when a Sex in the City episode of being friends with your ex's came on.
"Isn't it awesome we are watching this together" I tease and he laughs.
Being friends with someone you were in love with is really hard. It's a lot of work and you have to really want to be involved in that persons life. Sooner or later the love evolves into this wonderful loving friendship. It also helps you feel like your learning something about how to handle life and what you really appreciate.
So besides being an old fart this weekend I had the wonderful chance to have a dinner cooked by my brother on friday night. It was very fancy and beautiful with a main dish adorned by edible flowers. I discover interesting but unsurprising facts that wine by the desert dish makes me spill whatever else you decide to give me and when you tell me you can actually eat the flowers on your plate that they will be one of the many things to disappear by the end of the night.
So that night we made a toast to my brothers wedding, my mothers new job and when it came to me..well,...we made a toast to family..lol. We talked about maybe my brother opening his own restaurant which would be the best dream and I guess the air was filled with only bright positive things that will happen in the future which I wanted to inhale and keep in my lungs.

Well, what can I say but life is good. Although I'm bored out of my mind everyone around me who I love is having the best of luck and It's awesome. I'm so grateful to see the people I love start to get things that they well deserve!

Although I feel a little bit older, a little bit better I still find that there is nothing better then watching music videos in the morning and there are plenty of questions that need to be answered such as why is it dogs are so attracted to trees?