I just recently received a wedding invite to my new address. It is the first party invitation that I have had the pleasure of finding in the mailbox just when I thought that no one knew that I existed. For a short while I started to pretend that I had just disappeared off the face of the earth with my where abouts unknown and a profitable business in my back alley. While I spent my days in the shadows with cool sunglasses people that once knew me would think that maybe I had skipped town, ditching habitat and maybe just decided to leave America all together to some tiny place in Brazil where I always wore a dress and spent the most of my time ditching secret police that searched people who were trying to escape their student credit card bills. Of course none of these really exist and I settled for a more modest surroundings of a house on the east side with a chickens roaming in the back yard.

Needless to say,it makes me very excited even if it is a wedding. I'm starting to open up to weddings a little bit now that my brother is going to have one and slowly my family is easing up on the pressure of me having one. I'm assuming the full force of events won't start again until well after my thirties. The card is very pleasant maybe even more so considering that is was made by my cousin himself. I open it up and it asks me if I will attend and if I will bring a guest. I haven't realized until now but this puts me in quite the predicament. What do I say? The wedding isn't until August so the man of my dreams could show up at my doorstep any one of these days in fact I'm surprised he didn't show up delivering my invitation. That would have been very convenient. Maybe a Brad Pitt look a like who was just passing by and had noticed my invite that had fallen out of my mail box so by being a very considerate human being decided to drop it off in person while complementing me on how I don't wear make up or fix my hair.
All day dreaming aside I think that I will just put down two guests maybe just in case for I know that I can always drag an unsuspecting friend that wants to hang out at a VFW while my relatives tip over one another during a rendition of Brown Eyed Girl my brother decides to sing on the karaoke machine. Either way I thought I would run it by all of you for if anyone has a sassy comment such as " You should just be a strong independent woman and attend by your self...blah blah blah...jerk" then my arms are outstretched and open.

As for today I found myself trying to solve a problem that the world can't but for some reason I felt that a walk around lake phalen would cure. I read in the article in TIME about the rise of crime in cities that were populated but not compared to your major cities such as New York which according to the article the crime is about the same if not decreasing. They focused on Milwaukee WI to which they wrote about horrible crimes and the release of prisoners after serving the time when arrested during the Regan years of breaking down on drugs. One story a 11year old girl was gang raped by 19 guys. I don't know, what do you do about these types of things? I thought about it all day and there are so many factors that go into situations such as these, questions like is there too much violence on t.v or in our culture? maybe it's the cheap food that people have to eat to survive that cause them to act up? the up bringing? why is it always males? Is the "system" not hard enough for offenses? Brainstorming there were avenues that I wouldn't have even really considered but try to fix all of it. I mean, it seems like an almost impossible task. All I could think of was just kill everybody that do really horrible things. How horrible is that? and I have always been against the death penalty. I started to day dream about becoming the next woman president who's main gimmic was the fact that she was just going to kill all the bad guys. I would travel to all parts of town with signs of me holding a gigantic shot gun and being very popular in Texas. "She's from the midwest?" they would ask, " because she speaks like a true southerner"

Truth be told, I still am against the death penalty. I'm not really serious but what do we have to do from here? Whats causing it and how do you stop it because I really want to. It's hard to hear about stories that I read today I mean it really tears you up because on the other hand you really feel helpless when you try to do everything you can. Even though I haven't always had the most perfect upbringing I hate to hear people going through almost nightmare times. I guess I just want everyone to have the same kinds of things that I do and I would gladly give up as much as I can to make that possible.

So today I'm grateful for information. While I'm not sure about TIME magazine because I'm kind of weary about who it's trying to reach and what kind of things they promote I am glad for a variety of different news sources that I can kind of read from and deliberate between the good and the bad. I've always lived my motto " ignorance is bliss" which is absolutely true. I mean it has to be just look at people who own hummers and live in the suburbs with a sprinkler system that is turned on for almost the whole day. You can smell the juicy cut steaks and I can bet you those people are real happy. It wasn't until this year that I really have taken the time to kind of update myself about whats going on every day and trying to absorb something different about the world we live in. It's something that has definitely made me feel stronger even though at times honestly, has made me loose a lot of faith in man kind. But with all that said, I'm very grateful for just learning and loving everything I get whether it be the good or the bad.