My what seems like billionth day of running. I have to run ten miles tonight. It seems never ending. It's weird because when you think it is the music that is floating your body, you begin to hear the loud noise that has been playing in the back all along. Just the soft inner voice saying "don't give up don't give up don't give up"
After two brutal attacks around Lake Phalen it's nice to see the usual people still out walking around the lake as if to say nothing will stop them. There goes the man with his monkey, the girl who skateboards and for two years now is almost to that kick flip, the jogging pair who remind me of giraffes and who are the only insane bunch besides me that is out in the winter around the lake. A good representation. Nothing will spoil the bunch.
"Pigs are flying," I look down at my phone, "they are fucking flying around I just know it"
For months I've worked with a woman I refer to as "the grumpy lady" because she is never really excited for anything it seems. She gets mad easily and she swears at me. But she is an eight hours of work that I need so I stay with her. The other night when Dave and I went dumpster diving and saw boxes and grabbed them to give them to her for her move I realized maybe deep down there's more there. You know to think about someone on my off time when I'm sure I'm not fond of them.
Today after being nice to me she blew up at the last minute when shit hit the fan and swore and hung up the phone. I let out a huge sigh and felt myself slumping over in my seat. Further and further with each replay and my pondering on a way out. I have no way out. I slump further.
I arrive at Travis' house to train a new staff for him and he comes outside clean, khaki shorts and a new top and brand new wire rimmed glasses. He is going to be thirteen and although he doesn't quite resemble it yet he still looks like a pot brimming and about to over flow.
"Wow," I say in amazement, " Travis you are looking good today buddy."
My day is almost over when I look down at my phone to see missed calls from the grumpy lady and I think immediately that she is calling me because she forgot something in my car and I would have to travel all the way across the metro to give it to her. About to be really pissed off in two minutes she answers the phone and asks, "do you still want your water?" and in her own ways she apologizes and "wants us to work it out"
So a whole lot of amazing things today that I thought would never happen. Travis grew up, The grumpy lady said she was sorry, My drawing was accepted into the State Fair and I ran three miles in a half an hour. I know not major things but really when you think about it they are tremendous!
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