Secrets

This whole week I've been so off.
You know those weeks?...when you've been late to everything, you've dropped a bunch of stuff on the ground repeatedly including a big bowl of flour and you can never seem to go to the bathroom and close your zipper successfully.

It didn't help that on one of these days I had to go to the State Fair with Travis through work. It seemed like one disaster over another, Travis getting mysteriously muddy, My good intentions on wearing sandals and having permanent black feet for the night and being so flighty that I even lead us on the wrong bus going home.
I about had it.
During these times, I'm that person that goes, " Okay I'm going to go get a beer and sit in the corner and DO NOT bother me until I come out"
But considering I've officially spent all my weekly income on books, supplies and gas getting back and forth from school I realized that I'm just going to have to deal with life.....you know the real way.

Today was the first day that I've been with it...sort of. I left and made it to class early. I actually got a chance to take a shower.

Feeling on top of the world and still a little bored seeing that I had two hours pass before my next class I found my deep true inner love. Rooms that I forgot about that are tucked in the corners. Still the same smell and presentation and I realized what I would be filling my afternoons at school when I didn't have to do homework. I smiled to myself as I walked to the computer lab because the great thing is I'm not going to tell anybody. I'm such an open book kind of person that I'm just going to keep this one to myself. I'm sure one day down, down the line it will slip out but for now it's probably the most exciting thing that has happened yet!

"Well, that picture doesn't have a frame." I say and point, as all of our eyes turn to a giant canvas painting of Jesus, " Why does mine?"

"It's just the rules," they both say, " it protects the picture."
He leans into me curious, "Well.....how did you expect us to hang it?"
I pause and shrug my shoulders, "I don't know, just tape it up or something"
He laughs and the woman screeches, "No No no you have until Sunday. It has to be mounted and frame. State Fair regulations!"

In protest and after a lot of hard thinking Dave and I decide that my best option for doing all of this and cheapest way was to glue it onto a big piece of board and cover it with a plastic shower sheet. Later after buying everything and ready to mount we reread the rules and regulations and realized not only were we going to have to cut it down but I was going to have to spend some money on the whole process whether I like it or not.
"Shit," I sigh, " we are doomed! Look it has to be under plexiglass and have a frame. We'll just have to go get that stuff tomorrow. At least it will be easy to put together."

After four hours, only one piece of molding I threw across the room and a lot of "this is fucking stupid" and "stupid state fair regulations" my picture managed to get mounted and a frame was made. I thought I had made some good investments at Home Depot that day and really only buying the essentials for the project such as a six foot piece of plexiglas, dollar molding and particle board for the back. I would use whatever screws and nails I had at home for the rest.

When Travis and I were at the fair and looking at my piece there had been a chunk of the molding/frame that fell off and was now laying on the floor.
Kind of embarrassed of lack of caring something occurred to me.
You know this week might not be the best week ever I really came across some great experiences and realizations. Like no matter how small something is it's really the major component to the big picture. And weeks can go really bad but eventually just like everything they work out either in random luck or small adventures you decide to partake in.