Well Hello There!

Yesterday we got to see our baby for the first time. It is definitely the experience that makes everything more real. It was so cool, we could see the baby move and watch its little heart beat super fast. It is truly love at first sight.
This baby app I have says take 5 min a day to connect with your baby. Lay your hand on your stomach and think about the kind of parent you want to be and the traits you want your baby to have. I just draw a blank. I can only think of how much I hope that I am the best parent in the world. Whenever I think of the baby I think to myself I'm sure you will be totally perfect. There our 5 min bonding session falls short by about 4 min and 50 seconds. So I guess I started to take more time out during the day, oh! Chocolate chip cookies I say, baby your going to LOVE those! Camping is around the corner, I can't wait to show you everything about the outdoors, teach you how to fish.

The thought of fishing made me laugh, I'm actually a horrible fisher woman. The last time that I went fishing it was with my grandma and her boyfriend on a tiny aluminum boat with me in the middle. As I sent out my hook I could her Deforrest screaming ( grandmas boyfriend) and my grandma laughing. I slowly looked over at him in fear that I hooked him in the lip like I've seen in all those AFV videos. He just looked sad wide eyed at the water pointing. In relief I looked towards the waves what they were all looking at and it was his fishing hat slowly sinking in the water. "Hurry ! Reel it in!" He yelled. We reeled the hat in, unhooked it and Deforrest took his soggy hat and splat! Placed it back on his head where it belonged as we all laughed. That was the only thing I caught that day. I love fishing though, even though I'm horrible. I don't even like catching stuff, I just like the feel of casting your line, the sound as the wire slips and the plop of the bobber. I also like just waiting, and sleeping or just hanging out not really doing anything. Summer can't come soon enough!

Well I wish I could fast forward nine months but I can't. Not drinking has been way easier then expected. I remember a time n my life when I couldn't go a day without something to take the edge off. It's kinda weird but I like it! Still can't wait for that summit someday .