I haven't had much to say about anything really so this is why I haven't posted in a while. Sure I've been grateful for things and at times I find the time to write them down with an actual pen and paper but they get discarded in the trash. I just don't like what I write. So this post will probably be very insignificant like filler conversation about the weather but today I feel like writing and that's a good feeling even if it's about nothing.

I'm sick of doing what I've been doing. I'm very bored. This morning I had to listen to Natalie, my room mate, tell me that my five day vacation coming up is not considered a long vacation and how after three hours of work she will spend the rest of the day shopping, getting a massage and then going into a hot tub. I hated her, lol. She never really has to worry about money which in my family is the total opposite. How do you act when your around these types of people? I kept reminding myself that I should be happy for her because you should always be happy for a friends good fortune. So I am and what I don't have in material wishes I definitely have on other standards so its okay. I'm still glad for my vacation though, lately I feel like I need it.

Last night I felt very lonely and bored. I kept myself busy for most of the day and the weekend but when there is not enough time to sew and there is nothing more to clean your kind of just stuck with your own company. I miss having someone around to share my thoughts with and to hang out in the evenings. I wasn't really enthused about a relationship before but now I feel ready to have one when the time comes.


Well, that's all I've got for now :(
someday it will be something substantial.