Last night as I was driving home from a wonderful day I felt everything that was bothering me bubble up inside. Maybe it was the two summits, the silent drive home or the overwhelming conversation I keep having with myself to figure things out. When she calls I gush out to her because I love her and I can't hold anything in anymore. Today I feel a million times better.

Work was really slow today and a lot of it was spent admiring how people in north oaks live. When I came home tonight I wanted a quick run before the rain started and I ended up getting stuck in a tiny thunderstorm. I've never had a jog in a thunderstorm before, rain yes, but never a full out storm. Its definitely a different type of beauty. Normally a shower would be wonderful because its light and the water feels good. I remember this moment when the skies turned a deep dark blue-ish grey and it was during the fall so the burnt oranges and sallow reds were the brightest most amazing colors around lake of the isles. The rain came down to kind of gently kiss you and fill your shoes with affection. This also for some reasons reminds me of my favorite child hood memory being on my deck in woodbury around the age of seven on a sunny day and a small sun shower came for about twenty seconds. It was so soft on your skin like tiny feathers after a pillow fight. Tonight, at first was very intimidating and I must admit I was scared. The sky started out pitch black and then when the storm decided to fully accept me in it's path it was a dull light grey. Everything was grey around me, the lake the sky it was as though there was nothing that kept them separate. Like floating on a gigantic mirror with no reflection. Just bent over trees from the wind. When you have finally accepted the fact that there is no escaping the pelting rain you move where the wind take you. Every inch of me was soaked. Slowly I stopped from exhaustion. It was the weirdest kind of wonderful. Peaceful in the most peculiar way.

When I got home tonight I decided to play some music that I really like lately. I'm into three songs in particular all for different reasons and they are all drastically silly in their own way. I got to close the door and dance and rock out which made me feel incredible. My silly awesome three songs that I love are: June Carter wildwood flower, Keisha Cole Let it go and Beirut Postcards from Italy.