Gone Fishing

Yesterday I've realized I have to relax more or practice the art of doing nothing more often. I slept in late, went to the beach had a wonderful dinner and watched Xfiles on netflix. It was so so nice. At the beach I have started to read something that I picked up a year ago Eat Pray Love since the movie is coming out in August. That is an amazing book maybe mostly for me about her journey to becoming more connected with her spirituality or her "god". She is very great to relate to and the book is comforting.

I've come from a family of worriers and I would really love to worry less mainly about when I'm going to get married and have kids. I've realized that is really silly to worry about. Who cares. I'm happy right now and I just want to live in the moment. The great thing that has actually been working is to let it go one piece at a time to other people. I'm not a person to talk about my problems very much but it's helped to just let it slip out quickly to people I don't even normally confide in. Like little by little it's breaking off and leaving me.

I think I pray for a purpose in life almost every single day. I mean if I ever wanted anything in life it's always been a career or something to steer my life in to a direction of something I'm good at. Lately my business has been going very well and I've been fortunate to have all of these projects going and I don't think one person could ever know how blessed I feel. It makes me feel like I'm doing the right thing or going the right way for once. So today I'm grateful for the two opposites which I constantly fight over..being really busy and doing absolutely nothing.