Just for Kicks

The other week I started feeling the baby kick. It is such a cool feeling. It's crazy to think only women get to feel this. I remember freaking out a lot in my first trimester not knowing what was going on in there, if he was still in there even and now I get that reassurance everyday and lately almost every night around 3. I guess he is preparing me for the inevitable. Oh! And we found out it was a boy to our surprise! Which made all the things I wanted to make for the baby drop by half ( if not more).

When we went into the 20 week ultrasound we got the chance to see everything, his arms, his legs, rib cage, spine, hands and feet. He wouldn't turn too much so that we could see his profile but we did get to see him yawn twice. I had no idea babies yawned in the womb.

I can't describe how excited I am to meet him and to hang out with him. To dress him in little pimp clothes and put him in his Carlos holder. To love him and get slightly annoyed at times, to be super tired and cranky and to be crazy in love. I wish I didn't have so long to wait but so far time has flown by fast.

A few weeks ago we found out from our vet that our bunny for sure had cancer. She took samples anyways just to check and see if it was something else. We were devastated. My mom said to me " even bunnies have a heaven that they go to". All I could think of was I hope they don't have a seperated heaven. I kept thinking that if Oreo past I would hope to see him on the other side. I thought that if there were a heaven I guess I would want it to be a lot like my life now. Living forever in a little house in the woods with the people/animals  I love. Wild flowers and roses everywhere. Being able to go outside and watch the hot air balloons fly by. Watching the bats fly out our chimney at night. Watching the stairs while in bed through our tall windows. I guess I would include a pond or lake in our back yard but that's about all I would change. I would want to be forever young too. After all that thinking we got this miracle news that it was just a bacterial infection, something that they've never seen before. It was amazing and something we thought would never happen. We are so grateful. Oreo is an amazingly sweet bunny/ little soul. He makes adults turn into kids again. Kids and adults light up when they see him. It's such a cool trait to be able to do that. He also loves to cuddle, eat sweets and give kisses. So I guess don't give up on hope! Even when your an adult and at times it seems like you've grown out of it.